Sunday, October 30, 2016

The Big C

Bismillah...in the name of Allah..The Most Gracious Most Merciful....
It's been almost 3 weeks after my laparoscopy surgery,and they found there's a small c-cells on my colon and lymph nodes.As i am recovering from surgery today the oncologist asked me to do a pet scan.Its a detail scan to see if it spreading or not.The chances are 50-50 so the best way is surrender everything to Allah...
Please don't feel sorry for me,I really just wants some emphaty..Thats all...I hate when people make me cry cause I cry easily and its hard to stop once I starts.
If you know me well,you should know this by now.
Its emotional,its heartbreaking,knowing that people around you are constantly worried about you..Its suffocating to know that at some point I may have to wean off my baby sooner.
 But I also keep reminding myself that Allah is the best Planner.For He knows what is best for me..For He will never given me anything that I couldn't handle.For He is the one creating me,and for Him I shall return.. 
Bear with me cause I will not be entertaining any questions for know untilI I see my oncologist again..
Salam...