Friday, November 18, 2011

Lost .....

11 weeks ago,I found out I was pregnant, Few weeks after that, the doctor confirmed , It's a twin, But she warned of the risks, Mixed emotion, Worried,sad,happy,overwhelmed, God is great I was getting the hold of it, Last Tuesday another check up, Was feeling good, Morning sickness had eased up, Looking at the screen, Babies looked ok, But I noticed something, Where's the heart beats doc??? Then she said it, The nightmare that I did not want to hear, She asked me to wait, Leaving hospital with tears in my eyes, Hoping for miracle, Wanting for a second opinion, Mama said patience,mak said dont cry, Went for the second doc, Seeing them there, No heart beats, Kills me inside!! God knows how I wished I dont blame myself,r What I've done,what I've ate?? Thank Allah for people around me, For Ai'syah,for hubby, For those who care, I thank you... Though this might be the toughest moment for me, I'm glad I had all of you, My family,my friends,my hubby;my hero....