the clock is ticking..

alhamdulillah..it has come to the last trimester..there's nothing I could or would wished for except that I'll have a safe delivery and a healthy baby girl (insyaAllah)..God knows how it feels inside,the mixed feeling of anxiety and happiness that I'm sure me and my husband shared..I know he tried his best not to look worried soo i would be less worried,but his eyes tells it all..Is there's anything my husband bad is:is hiding something from me..Its like a curse and a blessing in the same time..
I know he's worried that i may go into c-sec (nauzubillah)..I know that he worried he'll be working during the delivery,and most of all his worried if anything happen to me and our lil girl..That I know for sure..It's nice to be pregnant when you have such a lovely husband..(angkat bakul sendiri nampak?) But honestly?Can anyone tell me if they husband actually wake up in the middle of the night just to give their wife a foot massage?Dispite the fact that he just came back from the long hours flight?I didn't meant to wake him up really,but when I had that cramp..I am really in pain,and I would cried like a baby..Then the next morning I would walk like a dinosour,cause it would still hurt..
Anyway, I'm heading for my posting interview this 5th November.Had to read loads of crap to prove that I wanted the job soo bad..(I doo...hehe)Do pray for me people!

Ramadhan yang special :))

Alhamdulillah....sekejap jer dah habis Ramadhan...sayu sungguh rasenye nak raye Ramadhan sungguh istimewa tahun ini..walaupun ibadat tak sehebat orang lain tapi memang Lin suke bulan ni..dari dulu lagi..selalu cakap ngan suami..bulan ni sangat 'magic'..hmm..sebab tu lah Allah bagi sekali je setahun..Walaupun tahun ni puasa ngan baby dlm perut,syukur sungguh rasenye dapat puase kurang satu hari je..(muntah dgn hebat di pagi birthday sendiri,ingatkn bleh tahan, kol sepuluh dah lembik sgt dah,tak tahan...)Ibu2 mengandung first time,please be noted that bersahur kene tau ape yang kite boleh dan tak boleh makan..seme org lain selere,tapi bg mengelakkan kejadian muntah seperti saye,tolongla jangan sahor makan campur2 mende yg pedas dan manis..perut tak smpt nak digest dlm ms yang singkat..huhu..
Disebabkan tidak bekerje dan mengadu terlalu kerap kepada suami tentang tahap keboringan dirumah bile die kerje..Kami memutuskan untuk buat biskut raye sendiri..Biskut raye yg pertame dibuat ialah Biskut Bunge Cine @ semprit bunge resipe mokde yang sgt hebat..
Cubaan pertame semprit kembang sampai takde bentuk bunge..haaha..klako gile..tergelak sorang2 malam tu sebab semangat sungguh,ijad tak sampai airport lagi dh start buat..Trus called mokdebertanye kenape jadi gitu..rupenye tepung kene tambah and klu nk kembang just nice kene buat kecik2 or dlm cup..haih!sungguh perasan bagus tak tanye sblm buat...Misi die teruskan..malam tu tido dkt pukul 1..alhamdulillah semprit menjadi lepas dpt tip dr mokde..
Biskut seterusnye,choc chip.Pastu sarang semut..ha!tu mmg hebat..buat ngan suami tercinte since die mmg nak sgt kueh tu..siap nak bisness lagi tahun depan.(yelah tu yang) Pastu buat cornflakes madu,last skali buat mini popia gulung,ni pun ngan Ijad..punyela jauh sampai Shah Alam nu pegi nak beli serunding ikan yang memang hebat..kiteorg struggle nak menggulung popia tu..barulah tau betape tak berbaloinye nk bisness mende tu..penat..
Bulan puase ni jugak Lin cukup 26 tahun..Ijad buat kek kukus pisang..special la tu...hehe..
(tak kisah pun sebab rase baby dlm perut ni hadiah paling best untuk kiteorg bedue) Tup2 die bagi jgk hadiah lain..handbag..hehehe...mmg misi die utk berhenti beli handbag dah sebenarnyer..tapi suami mmg lebey kurang jugak klu tgk handbag yg lain dr lain sket...so collection handbag Fadzlin bertambah lagi..(thank you sayang!)
Hmm..ape lagi eh?Owh tahun ni Lin raye umah Ijad dulu kat Temeloh sbb raye ketige Ijad dah keje..Mmg mule tu rase cam mama!!cane la nk raye mama seme takde?pastu pikir balik,haih!papa pun org Temeloh jgk..deorg pun blk sini..huhu..So,walaupun lambat,petang raye pertame pun Lin still jumpe mama,papa, and adik-beradik yang lain..Kire untunglakan kawen org dekat2 ni??hehe..okla..nanti smabung citer pasal raye in details..:)

Alhamdulillah...

There's no more words that could expressed the gratitude that I've been feeling this past few weeks..I just attended my convocation last saturday in UPM.As hot as the sunny sun was,it didn't matter to me..I'm finally graduating!My black long dress didn't even bother me eventhough I sweat like a pig (my husband direct translation as "bepeloh cam babi" lol) I knew that inside the hall the air-condition will be freakingly cool..

It was wonderful as both my mama and my mak made it.Though they have to travel all the way from Pahang for me, I knew that they knew how much I wanted them there..And not to mentioned the new level of my husband patience was being tested as he had to drive back and forth from UPM-Pekeliling-Puncak Alam-UPM.Just to make sure that he kept his promise to me.That he'll be waiting for me outside the hall.My dear papa was also very kind to just go with everyone's flow eventhough he was very hungry due to not having lunch prepared by me..My Along,who got his SLR lenses cracked due to the over-excited classmates of mine who did not throw the mortar board up high but to the front..(I am truly sorry long,I'll make it up to you one day,that's a promise) and lastly, my dear nephew, who was such a good sport fallowing his Uncle Ijad ( in faris words "Untle ijat') around without causing any trouble..

It was rather emotional to me as I tried to fight back my tears..remembering how much I wanted this degree.And how much my mother spend her time,energy ,and money to makesure that I'll made it this far..As walked out the hall and I saw my mama,she said "Tahniah sayang,mama takde bunge untuk Lin,malam ni kite dinner mama blanje.." and I said to her, "it's okay..Trime Kaseh ma.." and I said to myself,I should have said some more things,but we were caught in that moment.We were just hugging and kissing each other cheeks with the teary eyes.

I guess she knew that I'm lost for words and I truly hope that one day I'll be able to say all the things a should have said to her...Mama,you're my inspiration..and forever will be my hero...I love you...I'm tearing up now,so I guess I better stop...Please do not take your mom for granted..

The beginning of the end....

Its my last week in the school..I can help the mixed feeling of happy and sad..
Happy:

• I started to make new friends among the teachers,we've grown to like each others.
• my students and I are starting to really getting along..and they are nice kids..and i love them...
• I like to know that when I wake-up in the morning that I have some place to go:school...
• Above all, I love it that I am done with my teaching practical.I have learnt soo much in such a short time.That I am moving foward,closer to my goal,that I am graduating this August with my little bundle of joy with me,that I will be able to sit and reflect on what have i accomplished within my four years in UPM.

Then there goes the sad part:

• I'm not sure if we going be seeing each other later on.
• My students will just forget that i once exist and practically forget what I've tought them.
• I will restart my old habit of being a couch-potato.
• That I will not know how long the posting process will starts.The interview,the posting,and everything that comes with it..
  

Whatever happens I always remind myself that I should always,always be grateful for what I have.And everytime I failed to get something that I have worked for, I said to myself, I can't have everything I want and when God didn't give you something you want, He must have His own reason for doing soo..He is Always Fair and Knows Everything..So, I am forever grateful for what He has given me..Alhamdulillah...Thank you Allah...

My Baby…

I now officially have two babies to take care off..My hubby (the-big-baby) and my baby “baby” (in-the-making) he/she is three months this week.. Last Tuesday we went for the second check-up, during the scanning it was moving….upside down..it was soo adorable..last month it was really small..in a month the transformation was such a miracle for both of us…and it moved…we were awed by it ,when I came out from the doctor’s room I was bursting in tears…(blame the hormones!) suddenly I felt all the tiredness, the puking, the mood swings, GONE…it was worth it…I would never understand how anyone could just throw away their babies... in whatever circumstances that they are in…its just pure unhuman…even the animals protect their babies….

Back to our little bundle of joy…I’m feeling way much better now, still have times that I am nauseated by strong smells( bau org masak kari,bau asap rokok,b.o yg sgt habat )or by tooth paste(had to get a maternity tooth paste,lol). One thing for sure, I can eat rice again!Not saying that before this I can’t even eat it,I just lost the appetite, but now its on again and I am happy!:) Amazingly,I actually lost weight last month..I read that some lost weight on the 1^st trimester but will be gaining in the 2^nd and final trimester…so,I’m guessing I’m fine then..the funny part is ijad’s stomach is growing a bit bigger now that most people that we know are noticing it…my dear hubby,he was on training for two months and he finished most of the food that I can’t finished..soo there you go…He didn’t really gain any weight its just the stomach..hehe…cute…( only applicable to me,cause he’s mine :p)

Well that’s the updates…Lin is pregnant and vewy2 happy…in 4 weeks time will finish her teaching practical.!!yabedabedooo!!!!