Give her a TWO!

some of the shots taken from Ai'syah's birthday..much thanks to all that came.though she was sick,like her ummi (eccheee!) Ai'syah was a good sport that night!may you be a solehah daughther,sister,and mother one day..amin...ummi and baba loves you soo very much!

Of D&C and Rota Virus....

Today we are going to talk about D&C,according to Medlineplus Medical Encyclodia,D and C is a procedure to scrape and collect the tissue (endometrium) from inside the uterus.

Dilation ("D") is a widening of the cervix to allow instruments into the uterus.
Curettage ("C") is the scraping of the walls of the uterus.

As I shared my recent misscarriage,this was our last alternatives since the doctors have tried giving me prescriptions and giving me meds to clears out my uterus...it was the longest sleep I had after two years off no deep sleep after having Ai'syah,cause she fully breastfed.When the doctor give me a heads up that I'll feel nothing but sleepiness I was quite nervous since I never experince general or local anesthesia.I can feel the meds kicked in and bam!I'm in lala land!I can hardly open my eyes after almost two hours,though the procedure only took about 30 minutes..Only the next day I realized that its really over,the babies I carried for 11 weeks are now really gone...I had mixed feeling of relief and sad but I need to sucked it up since Ai'syah was having a terrible dierhea,she cried everytime she pooped and her soft bottom had this nasty redness which just made it worse.
Meanwhile,earlier that week I've already booked place,cakes,and invited bunch of friends and family for Ai'syah birthday party,something that I decided to do inspite of all the things happened to me..Its just seemed not fair to skip my princess birthday cause ummi was sick..Then at the night of her party,princess dierhea worsen,she now puked!Party had to go on,she was smiley all thru the night,though she was pretty scared of the A & W bear.But I can see her getting tired from everything and puked again before we leave the party..The next day,we decided that we need to take her to the hospital,jumped straight to emergency room cause she starting to look fatigue,doctor examined and decided to do a swab test,and then told us that she had Rota Virus,something that we didn't see coming...But the good news was she's showing signs off recovering as the doctor point that Rota Virus can't be detected early,only when its almost over then only they could tell..Alhamdulillah,she's revovering well...
So there you goes,my episodes in the hospitals...

Lost .....

11 weeks ago,I found out I was pregnant, Few weeks after that, the doctor confirmed , It's a twin, But she warned of the risks, Mixed emotion, Worried,sad,happy,overwhelmed, God is great I was getting the hold of it, Last Tuesday another check up, Was feeling good, Morning sickness had eased up, Looking at the screen, Babies looked ok, But I noticed something, Where's the heart beats doc??? Then she said it, The nightmare that I did not want to hear, She asked me to wait, Leaving hospital with tears in my eyes, Hoping for miracle, Wanting for a second opinion, Mama said patience,mak said dont cry, Went for the second doc, Seeing them there, No heart beats, Kills me inside!! God knows how I wished I dont blame myself,r What I've done,what I've ate?? Thank Allah for people around me, For Ai'syah,for hubby, For those who care, I thank you... Though this might be the toughest moment for me, I'm glad I had all of you, My family,my friends,my hubby;my hero....

Al-fatihah..

Yesterday,early in the morning my usual routine starts with subuh prayers,then ipad browsing..i saw my highschool senior status that said that one of her batchmate passed away the night before after fighting a battle with breast cancer..i burst into tears,i should have visited her during raya,i should have looked for her address..i was filled with guilt..:(i was planning to do soo,but..there's always a but...no used of talking about it,just make me felt more guilty.. I didn't had the chance to see her after highschool,she was my sister batchmate,my roomates when i was in form1,hour beds were next to each other,i remember how sporty she was,how she smell in the morning before heading to class,she used to wore top-to-toe Enchanter showel gel,lotion,and perfume...She was tall,totally cheerful,and ready to cheer me up whenever I'm down..We've came accrossed through our facebook pictures,and status....she did mentioned that she's sick but never really mentioned about what kind of sickness she's dealing,only those whose closed knew cause she did starts blogging for a short time...today i read her blog,she manage to write 10 entries which started in July,knowing her for that short period of time,I knew she was such a strong person,fighting a battle that only God knows how painful it is.. I cant stop crying reading this one entry about her daughter whose turning 7 years old next year,and how smart she is..all i can do is pray for her,and for her family to carry on with their lives..al- fatihah..

our 3rd raya...

After a few weeks of playing nurse at home cause Ai'syah got chicken pox and then she got tummy infection(saddest part was seeing her refusing food, that's another entry)We had a blissful raya!This year,baba 's turn,then off to Pekan!wehooo!more people,more houses to go to,we all got cirit-birit cause overate ! dose tau,org kat Somalia tak cukup makan,gile tak wasatiah!anyway,Ai'syah is back on munching almost everything,alhamdulillah!I can see her cheek again!slamat hari raye semua!