How fast time flies...

It is coming to the end of my confinement period here in my home sweet home Pekan.All these mixed emotion of having to go back and be on my own is starting to scare me..All the questions are running through my head:

• can I do this on my own?
• can I handle the stress?
• am I going to be able to work IF I manage to get a job?
• will I'll be able to be a good mother,wife and a daughter at the same time?

now lets try to answer all the questions..

• well,technically,my hubby's at home most of the time,so I still have help cause I knew his very helpful,just not as much help compared to having my family members helping me now and the fact that I'll have to do my wifey chores(cook,clean,etc)
• i should be able to handle the stress giving the fact that I would probably won't be working...lol!
• hmm..that's a tricky one,I'll get back when it make sense to me..huhu..
• InsyaAllah...if my mama can,I can!woh!(Malaysia Boleh!)

Conclusion:I am a helpless spoil women who soo used of having helps around..but then again why would I be complaining if I have such a caring family rite?:)

Berat mate memandang,berat lagi bahu memikul..

Alah,pegi jelah,bln 6 nanti bleh buat rayuan..kejap jer..Rugi tak pegi,susah nak dapat posting dh sekarang ni..Takkan taknak keje?Penat belajar tuh..
Hmm..sedapnyer memberi nasihat..Tak nampak ke budak kecik kat tangan saye ni?Suami saye bkn keje cam suami org lain,weekend cuti boleh dtg..Sape plak yang kate saye taknak keje??Dah tak pg posting,tmpt lain takle keje ker?Teruk sangat ke keje swasta?Mati ke kene blacklist ngan KPM?Dalam hati ku seru, "sabarla fadzlin, orang lagi senang bercakap ttg ape yg tak jadi kat dieorg,latak die kat tmpt kite,blum tentu die bleh handle.."
Mama saye keje swasta, dari saye kecik, adelah 3 kali saye pg cek kat hospital kerajaan.Yer,mama saye takde pencen,tp saye tau klu mama bleh sara kiteorg berlime,kenape tak saye dgn suami yg bekerje?Saye yakin,insyaAllah rezeki saye ade di tempat lain..Memang senang menasihat,tapi klu kite tak penah ade ditempat org tu,jgnla lebey2..Pikirla pepatah diatas...
Saye tak pergi posting bkn sebab saye terpakse berkorban demi anak dan suami..Saye tak pergi kerane saye yakin ini yang terbaik buat kami bertiga..saya masih merangkak membina sebuah keluarga, dan saye yakin yang rezeki ade di mane2..Allah menguji saye kerana Dia tahu,saya mampu hadapi semua ini...So,kawan2:let me know if there's any jobs vacancies for me aite?

One Year!!

Alhamdulillah,its been a year that me and my husband share our life as husband and wife..Coming to the year 2010,we'll be starting a whole new chapter as parent and for me hopefully as a teacher..( i tell you about tat in a whole other entry).Remembering back a year back yesterday,was one of the most beautiful day of my life.My wedding day,and fast forward this year,
the same date, I have an adorable little girl in my arms, sleeping like nothing else matter..
Its the best feeling,knowing that waking up in the morning that you have that two person waiting for you to kiss them..hopefully in near future the number will add up..insyaAllah..I have soo many people to thank to,but most of all,I have to thank the Most Merciful for blessing us..There's no words can describes how thankful we are for what He has given to us.
My dear husband,whose working day and night,trying his best to fulfill this little lady needs and now another little girl who also will be relying on him.Thank you sayang..We love you...And I pray for us to be forever till eternity...Amin...

Buah Hati Ummi and Baba

Wahai Nur Ai'syah sayang,harini genap hari ke 24 kite bersama.(Tapi klu ikut misi 23).Ummi dgn baba still jakun ngan Ai'syah..9 bulan kami tunggu Ai'syah tau...(Well,almostla 38 weeks) Tak sampai seminggu sayang ummi ade jaundis sket,lemah lutut ummi,mujur seme org sekeliling ummi gagah2 belake.Alhamdulillah,semalaman jer kite tido KSH.
Cukup 10 hari misi timbang,sayang ummi dah 3.2 kg.Baba senyum,ummi kembang, berkat susu ummi kan?Masuk minggu ke2 ummi "terajar" sayang habit baru,tido bawah ketiak ummi..hehe...
Ummi rase best sangat bile ummi peluk sayang,sayang trus senyap,tido baik punyer...
Baba yang dok ulang alik dari Puchong-Pekan pun tiap-tiap kali balik nak pelok sayang cam ummi..
Ummi bgla can,sayang pun suke kan baba pelok?
Baba cium sayang tak renti2 klau die ade..(hmm..ummi pun dh sket jeles tau..) tapi takpela..seronok tengok baba jatuh cinte dgn sayang..macam ummi jatuh cinte ngan sayang dari hari pertama ummi rase sayang gerak2 dlm perut ummi...Wahai Nur Ai'syah,buah hati ummi dan baba,jadilah kau anak yang solehah..Doa kami sentiasa dgn mu...

Nur Ai'syah....

30th November 09,4 pm,Puchong..our long waited bundle of joy was borned...there's no word can describes the feeling that I have for her...all the backache,and all kind of sickness for the past 9 months seemed to just flew out of the window every time I looked into that beautiful face...Dear Alllah...how great Your love are!We're blessed..and I am grateful for Your gift to us...Alhamdulillah..thank You Allah...